I had to stop reading when I reached it.
The biggest predictor of suicide is not depression, it is the loss of hope.
I put it down, looked away, tried not to let an expression show. I was at work and glancing through a magazine. It was talking about someone who spent many years in mental health institutions. He committed suicide once he was back in the world. Loss of hope.
That struck me hard. Because I am not feeling very hopeful. Have been really pressurised by lack of money for a few months. Can’t see it getting any better. But I won’t talk about this with friends. Will barely breathe a word to my husband. Turns out I am still a clam of feelings.
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